Voodoo
Lyrics by Godsmack
Fic by Icka! M. Chif

*Twang* 

The arrow flies true, striking the half youkai in the heart. Emotions flash across his face as he realises that I'm the one who shot him. Surprise. Shock. Almost a hurt expression, like he can't believe that I did it. Says my name, then he slumps down, dead. I give a sigh of relief as his expression turns peaceful, like he's sleeping.

A sleep that he'll never wake from. 

CANDLES RAISE MY DESIRE 
WHY I'M SO FAR AWAY 
NO MORE MEANING TO MY LIFE 
NO MORE REASON TO STAY 

The anger that has sustained me this far fades away like a breeze. I've very tired all of a sudden. Rest. I want to rest. I'm so very tired. My heart is heavy with his betrayal.

FREEZING FEELING, 
BREATHE IN - BREATHE IN 
I'M COMING BACK AGAIN.

"Kaede." I say, barely able to stand now. She's been at my side for almost as long as I can remember, my constant shadow. Even know, with one of her eyes gone from the youkai's attack, she's there for me. I smile at her, dizzy, and hand her the cause of all this pain. "Take the Shikon No Tama." I tell her. "And burn it with my remains."

I can't pass on my obligations to my little sister. It's time to end this for good.

I'M NOT THE ONE WHO'S SO FAR AWAY, 
WHEN I FEEL THE SNAKE-BITE ENTER MY VEINS, 
NEVER DID I WANT TO BE HERE AGAIN 
AND I DON'T REMEMBER WHY I CAME. 

I die. I know I die and am glad for it. With death comes a release. Release from duty, from pain. A release from the memories of someone I thought I could love, and loved me.

I'm free.

HAZING CLOUDS RAIN ON MY HEAD 
EMPTY THOUGHTS FILL MY EARS 
FIND MY SHADE BY THE MOON LIGHT 
WHY MY THOUGHTS AREN'T SO CLEAR 

I'm drifting in a sea of endless fog. Every so often, I get bright flashes of emotion. Joy. Hope. Love. Belonging. People dance in and around in a symphony of life. I watch all, content.

DEMONS DREAMING, 
BREATHE IN - BREATHE IN 
I'M COMING BACK AGAIN. 

Sudden terror fills me as some thing calls me out of where I am. I struggle, refusing the pull. I don't to go, I'm happy where I am! Don't say my name! Don't let me go!

I'M NOT THE ONE WHO'S SO FAR AWAY, 
WHEN I FEEL THE SNAKE-BITE ENTER MY VEINS, 
NEVER DID I WANT TO BE HERE AGAIN 
AND I DON'T REMEMBER WHY I CAME. 

A familiar voice calls me back from my haven. It breaks what resistance I can put up and I'm dragged away. I take a breath in, then another. Blood rushes through my veins once more, bringing with it memories I don't want and burdens I was free of. I stumble forward, into the arms of she who did this.

VOODOO, I'M NOT THE ONE WHO'S SO FAR AWAY.