Disclaimer: Takahashi Rumiko Sensei

Questions

By Icka! M. Chif

Who?

Who am I? I've asked that question of my self before.

At one point in time, I was the Shikon no Miko, protector of my village and the Shikon no Tama. And now... Now I am a husk of earth, ashes and bones, stuffed with stolen souls and a heart of anger.

What?

What does that make me? What am I? Am I walking abomination or am I someone blessed with a second chance at life? I don't know. I've thought both a few times. Once I was almost killed again for being what I am now. But I've also been grateful for it once or twice, when teaching the children of the village I'm passing through about plants and medicine.

Which brings me to my second most often asked question. What am I doing here? Once, I thought it was to bring Inuyasha to hell with me. But now I'm not sure anymore.

Where?

That one is an easy question to answer. Anywhere. Naraku's palace, my sister's hut, the God Tree. They, and I travel everywhere. Anywhere a shard might be. Or might not be, as the case may be.

When?

That answer should be obvious. But is it really?

Part of my soul is from the future. Kagome. But form, and soul are from the past. She and I are one. We are also both here, in the present. But we are not the same.

I've seen the way Inuyasha looks at me now. There is sadness in his eyes, like his heart is bleeding. But I've also seen the way he looks at her. There's a certain light in his eyes. Not the one he had 50 years ago. A different kind.

It's called hope.

I had hoped I would be the one that would bring that light to his eyes, but I have failed.

How?

The Shikon no Tama is the main reason for everything, I believe. Without it, Naraku probably wouldn't have ever met and betrayed me. Inuyasha would never have come into my life. None of this would have happened.

Naraku is the other. He wants me. I want Inuyasha. Naraku tries to kill me. I try to kill Inuyasha. And Naraku. Kagome also wants Inuyasha, Kouga wants her... Forgive me, I'm rambling to myself...

Why?

I wish I knew. Sometimes I think this is all some great cosmic joke. That there is some Kami up there laughing at me.

And then there is the most important question of them all.

Inuyasha.

I love him.

I hate him.

I want to kill him.

I want to hold and kiss him for eternity.

What does one do when you have no answers for the questions in life?

Fin.